It’s Not About the Monet
I came across a time-lapse video documenting the building of One World Trade Center this morning. I grew teary-eyed as I watched. The images hurtled me back to the events of September 11, 2001 and reminded me of why I became a teacher.
I did not aspire to be a teacher in college. I wanted to stand out and do something different. I consumed art, and it consumed me. I interned at fine art museums and pursued art restoration in Florence, Italy. My first career I landed a job in the Exhibitions Department of the Los Angeles County Museum of Art. My hectic days filled with negotiating loan contracts, overseeing installations and deinstallations, organizing shipments and schmoozing with artists and celebrities at art openings. I lived for the thrill of courier trips and traveling with art. A hand carry of a crated Frida Kahlo painting in first class, where the posh painting earned its own seat. A trip across the country in a climate-controlled tractor trailer sans shower to escort millions of dollars worth of Legers to the Modern Museum of Art. I will never forget the shock of watching crates of fine art loaded into the belly of planes alongside shrinkwrapped bodies and exotic animals.
But there is more to life than chasing money, fame and prestige. And I cashed this life in the day the World Trade Center collapsed. I remember that day with perturbing clarity. I woke up to my typical routine of watching the news while I dressed and prepared to sit in 90 minutes of traffic on my 12 mile commute to the museum. The morning moved about in slow motion as I watched in helpless horror as the first tower collapsed live on television. Sitting in bumper to bumper traffic on the freeway surrounded by the towers of downtown Los Angeles to my left and right, the crumpled faces of commuters around me squeezed out endless tears as we all listened to the second tower shatter in solidarity alone in our cars.
That Tuesday I recall business as usual and a slew of meetings with no acknowledgements as to the events that had transpired, save a few stranded couriers and pieces of art that needed to be tracked down. I forced myself to sit through meetings as I contemplated how human beings could be so robotic at a time like this. Later that morning I received a phone call from a shipper headed out of New York City with an anticipated contemporary art exhibition. No trucks could get out of the city. The show would install late, and the next phone call would change my life forever. Sitting on the phone listening to a curator belligerently yell at me because I could not find a way to get the show to LACMA on time, it was all I could do not to scream back, “You heartless bitch! Don’t you realize how many Americans just died? Who gives a shit about the art! They’re fucking oversized tents for crying out loud!”
It was then that I decided to become a teacher. In that moment I realized that my life revolved around preserving dead art and pandering to the elite. I wanted more. I wanted to do something that made a damn difference in the world. I wanted to surround myself with human beings who would give a damn when another 9/11 happened. That is why I decided to become a teacher.
I entered the teaching profession ten years ago. Ten years and almost 1,000 students, and I have yet to regret the choice I made on 9/11. Teaching is hard, but at the end of the day you know you have made a difference in the lives of your students. You know you’ve saved lives intervening as a mandated reporter when a piece of writing falls into your hands containing accounts of abuse, rape, addiction or suicidal tendencies. You know that you are blessed to work with others who are just as selfless and compassionate as you. And even some of the most challenging students, the ones broken by dysfunctional families and society’s failures, seek you out years later to let you know just how much of a difference you made in their lives and how you contributed to build them into the men and women they are today.
Life is not about the Monet. It’s not about chasing fame, fortune or glamour. It’s not about focusing on the past and what we’ve lost. It’s about giving back and working with a relentless fervor to build a better world. It’s about investing in people, not things. And it starts with our children.











